The account of steps taken towards my future...

2008-07-15T22:03:00.002+10:00

Alright, alright... i know, there are wayyy tooo many cobwebs on the blog... but pls forgive me.. it's been abit of a rollercoaster ride in the last 2 months... lots have happened and there's been more low points than high points....but I am still standing strong... I have not given up and am still running, albeit injuries and tears...

Highlight of the 2 months is the road trip I took with Alan, Kevin (Alan's youngest brother) and Patrick... Both Alan and Patrick are Uni classmates that I have grown to be quite close with in the last few months... We made an impromptu decision to drive down to Victoria, stayed 3 nights on the Great Ocean Road, and another 3 nights in Melbourne city, and spent at least a good 38hours of driving. We covered a total of 3154.5km in a rented toyota camry. It was a budget holiday and I'm proud to say with the adequate amount of planning, we made it under budget, spending no more than $700 per person for a 7 day holiday in Victoria, inclusive of all petrol, car hire, accomodation, food, tourist attractions and extra spending money... Alan and I cooked most meals and had lots of fun guessing recipes and cooking off the top of our heads... The road trip was filled with lots of bonding and relaxing time.. we spent the nights playing card games, watching dvds and chatting.... sleeping and the days shopping, nature watching, lots of photo taking, walking and driving...

Basic breakfast consists of Scrambled eggs, crispy bacon, American biscuits (Australians and English call them Scones) lots of juice, water and mugs of coffee and chai teas...

There are 3 photo albums and to view them, click on

Album 1
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=47266&l=f4863&id=628420933

Album 2
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=48965&l=12954&id=628420933

Album 3
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=48966&l=da1b2&id=628420933

The last week has been particular difficult, having found out 2 deaths of a close friend and a close friend's family member, 1 funeral to attend, 1 memorial video to create, 1 car accident in which I have been physically injured (whiplash, bruised collarbone and ribs and a torn ligament in my ankle), and the car disfigured... and Alan left Sydney for good on Friday.... He's flown to Africa to shoot a documentary for 2 wks before returning to Alabama, USA. On Tuesday, we took his youngest brother Kevin, who is only 16 and has spent the last month in sydney, to the airport and saw him off too...
Albeit the sadness, we still had nice times... had dinner at the Sydney Towers, spent alot of time packing, drinking chais and lots of laughter in the middle...

Work is about to get a lot more busy... with conferences around the corner... so we'll see how I go...

I'm on a uni break for another week... and then it's round 3 of 4... but this time it will be weird because I'll have to work with a whole new group of people... Familiar faces that I have gotten used to in the last year will be no longer... It sux being the only Part time student in the cohort... and according to a lecturer who is more like a friend than a lecturer, she is glad I am not having to do my major project this semester as she thinks that this new cohort isn't as good... I'm only going to be doing the electives and classes will be in the evenings...

Speaking of Uni, results are out today, and I am slightly disappointed... all 4 subjects i have done are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo freaking close to a Distinction... but no.... they aren't kind enough to just give me 2 miserable points... ARGH........ :( Never mind... i have 4 more subjects to take... and this time round, hopefully, i can put in more focus...

Not an issue of effort... but focus.... I guess its the price of trying to squeeze too much into this life, working full time in different positions and studying a post grad degree part time.. plus trying to have a little bit of a life... I feel this year that maybe I have spread myself a little too thin... But I have stepped into this choice... and there isn't any room to turn back...
so maybe I'll just have to ride it out.... but then again, who knows, there could be a miracle in the next 2 semesters... although, looking at the way the guys had to work in the last semester, it's going to be tough... and I'll need all the strength I have.... and support is always appreciated... (And no I'm not saying I don't have that now)....

Alright, enough of my ranting.... There's a 8am meeting... and I am teaching 2 classes tomorrow, taking on 1 extra class for this term... Wait a minute... what did I say about spreading myself a little too thin????????? hmmmmmmmmm Let's see how I go...

2008-05-06T23:10:00.002+10:00

why is it always upsetting to know that a close friend is about to leave the country...FOREVER :(

2008-04-11T22:56:00.002+10:00

Simple Pleasure #3:
Trying a new flavoured gelato for the first time ever - LAVENDER, and not regretting it!

Simple Pleasure #4:
being thanked for mustering the courage to send a message and being told that the message is very much appreciated...

Dr Bruce Isaacs said this to me today -
Let me say that it’s natural to feel intimated by the prospect of completing a thesis....

Orson Welles created a masterpiece at age 25... I have 2 years and 4 months to go and alot to catch up on!!!!!

2008-03-28T23:35:00.002+11:00

Been sick and busy with Uni... but here's another simple pleasure in life:

being told that you rock someone's world...

Sigh... its times like this I wished I could leisurely watch a dvd or movie.... not having to look at it academically...
No critical analysis... no reviews......

2008-03-13T22:23:00.002+11:00

I've decided to bring some life back into this blog... or at least I'm going to try......
So here's my strategy.... everyday, I will try n remember a simple pleasure from the same day and post it... in the hope that maybe, it could help me appreciate life more...

Simple Pleasure #1:
Slurping hot instant noodles reallly realllyyyy loudly when there is no one else at home.... when you havent had a chance to have instant noodles for a long time...

2008-01-21T11:04:00.000+11:00

hmmm the past few days have gone fast... I am clearly still on the Australian Time zone... woke up this morning at 5am Singapore time... and drove Mindy to School. Dad's gone to Thailand for 14days so I have the car. So far, all i've done is eat LOTs of food, did a lil' shopping yesterday... and also tried for the first time Fish Spa... it was really wierd, letting fishes exfoliate your skin by nibbling your dead skin. Aparantly its really popular.. Not cheap i have to say. My aunt took me so that I could have an experience....

Anyhow, I will let the pictures do the talking as i'm feeling a lil' lazy...
Oh n please excuse some of the photos... they were taken with the lil' camera that seems to be finding it hard to focus at the moment.

On Board the A380 AirBus, where I got really air sick.

The new airport Terminal in Singapore...

we have trees in the terminal???

Singapore's various transport options *snicker*

Double Deck Bus

View of the inside of a bus... see the little tv screen on the left? Its Mobile TV

Food Glorious Food....

Black Pepper Venison Meat

Spicy Baby Squid

Spicy "Kang Kong", some sort of veg

Asian Salad... hehe

Gran bought this for breakfast one morning?! Stewed Potato and Stir fry lady's fingers

Real Mayo from Maccas, as opposed to Fake??? What THe?!

Prawn Noodles

Another from of Salad

Jen, thought of u when I had this because this is the form of Jelly that I grew up eating... :)

Steamed Chicken

Broc with Scallops n Carrots

Special Chicken Wings

Assam Fish....

Spicy Noodles from my heritage, also known as Nonya Mee Siam

Pancakes

Fried Beancurd

Century Egg & Pork Rice Congee

Spicy "kang kong" again - me dad's fav.

U wan flied lice or flied noodol??? How bout Spling loll? hehehe

Spicy Tapioca Leaves

Stir fry venison meat

Steamed Fush

Salad Prawns?

Family & Friends

Philomena and I

Gran n I

Bridget n I

Gran having dinner

Michelle Lim - one of my business partners

Fish Spa -_-

View from my place

View of the 24 hr Coffee shop one street away from my apartment block

View From my Living Room 1

View From my Living Room 2

Jenny n Claudia, I thought of the dogs when I saw this in Ikea... its soooo cuteeee

And Last but not least... a 'wierd' toilet in Singapore

2008-01-18T07:14:00.000+11:00

Yes... its times like that that I love having wireless internet connection and a laptop.I'm sitting at gate 57 of Sydney's international terminal and I should be boarding the plane in 30mins....Its a little nerve wrecking being on the A380 for the first time, but at the same time, exciting.
Oh and as I type this line, the plane is pulling into the bay.... and its a big momah... a car or person next to the plane is like a big dog and an ant...
anyhow I'll post a picture of it when I get back,... I've been sitting here for the last 2hrs, and got a little startled when I was stopped by a lady doing surveys... Only reason being that I have been rudely reminded that I've been in Australia for almost 6yrs.... Kinda scary really....

Kinda surreal... being on holiday and all, I havent even left the airport but already I am missing people from here....
The people and the dogs.. It'll be wierd being back in Sunny *i hope* Singapore...

They didnt allow me to bring up my heat pack 'cos it was more than 100ml of gel... so I really am not looking forward to this 8hr flight... but I've had breakfast.... Soy Chai n Banana Bread from GJs..... so I can load up the pain killers and hope for the best... I have 2 mags to keep me occupied... the laptop if I want to do some "work"... and hopefully I get to sit next to someone who doesnt need a whole lot of arm space.... or smells... better still, have a spare seat next to me!!!!

I had less than 2 hrs of sleep last night and hte past few nights have been similar... so I'm a little dazy at the moment... so maybe the pain killers might knock me out cold.... which might be a good thing....
I will update again when I touch down...
But till then, over and OUT....

PS Those who matter, you know who u are, take care and see u in cyberspace... :) xx

2008-01-01T01:27:00.000+11:00

Hello 2008! Oh and Happy new year to everyone... Just got home from work 15 mins ago, and just eating a little supper before I go to bed because I have been starving for the last 3hrs... Figured that it wouldnt be good to start the new year with an empty n hungry stomach... So i've cooked some of my favourites (Or I should say, the only few items I have left in my fridge)...

My first Australian New Year experience... and spent at work with about 1500 other people....and at the end, we had massive fireworks that went for 15mins.... Loud echos through the valley, surely the neighbours who were asleep got awoken... N I wonder how much work spent on those fireworks because they were quite impressive... fast n furious and loud... oh did I mention LOUD?

Anyhow, I'm done with supper... shall go get myself washed and go to bed.... 2am and so far 2008 is looking better than 2007.
Goals, Resolutions, Dreams and Vision all set and ready to go... and requests put in to the Big Guy...

So Here's to a brilliant and prosperous and healthy year, with good friends, increased wisdom and fuller pockets... hahaha

2007-12-29T00:27:00.000+11:00

Ahhh finally I sit down and do a little blog....

Just waitin for me hair to dry as I had to wash it after coming home from a bbq. I cooked at the bbq and did really well with the meat department..... really proud of my bbqing skills hahahaha

Anyhow... went to the physio today... n now have me back bandaged as a trial.... budget back brace I call it.

I can't believe the year is so close to an end... 3 more sleeps and we are into 2008. And I'm lookin forward to a better year..... this year has been "interesting"

anyhow I thought I'd quickly post up a few photos but the net is taking way tooooo long to upload them, so next time perhaps...

I cant believe what i just did... i called The Mint, a game show on tv, but didnt get through the line, however, Ive been entered for second try... hahahahaha So embarrasing.... being bored is no good, it makes u do silly things.... -_- The answer is so easy
!!!!!!!! but no one's getting it, I just cant get through, if not I'd tell them what the answer is... -_- I'm such a sucker for TV-mercials n that -_- Oh well a little bit of adrenaline for me... Its been going for 30mins n no one has the answer!!!!!!!

grrrrr TV's bad for u....

anyway hair's now dry..... time to go to bed... n stop this posting...

2007-11-29T23:24:00.000+11:00

Michelle's good at shopping.... so good she got a pair of boots and silver sandals for under 20bucks each...

admitedly, they are from the kids department and were both on special for $20. But because Michelle had a 40% discount coupon too, they were both under 20bucks...

the 40% discount was also usable for a couple of other shops so she bought 3 work tops.

2007-11-24T02:58:00.000+11:00

its 3.11 freakin am in Sydney... Michelle's just made a phone call to the police because neighbours have been playing loud music n banging to the music for the last couple of hours..... she's got a massive headache and has tried ear plugs (an everyone knows how much she hates them) but to no avail because michelle can still freakin hear them! Party's gone all week.... N i've drawn the line..... a notice was put out to the residents of the unit that there was going to be a party today... so they better learn from this and not repeat it later in the day!!!! grrrrrr

2007-11-19T19:34:00.000+11:00

sigh... last day of the holidays.... feel like it hasn't been enuff. Spent most of the last two weeks catching up on sleep, and spending time helping a friend that was reallly sick.... now that its time to go back, i feel like i'm dragging my heels and looking forward to another break....

I am seriously thinking about next year.... there is 1 option that is extreeeemmmeeelllyyyyyyyyyy tempting.... but i won't make any rash decisions....

anyhow I saw this on a friend's blog n decided to do it here....

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?
Produce: Mango
Bakery: Soy n Linseed Bread
Meat: Roast chicken
Frozen Foods: Ice blocks!
Dry Goods: Muesli with Nuts!!!

Let’s say we’re heading out for a weekend getaway. You’re only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what’s in your bag?
Jeans
2 T shirts

If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day, what 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
Oh really?
uh-huh
WHAT?
Sh**
Blarrrrdeeee Hell ( in the English accent )
ARGH......

So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn’t get to do, you probably wouldn’t be in the best mood?
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner

You just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We’re talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
Watching TV
Face-booking
chattin on MSN
eating
Watching a dvd

We’re going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it’ll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
Polar Bears
Lions
Penguins

You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick between 4, so what are you deciding between?
Numbers
House
Airport Security
CSI NY

You’re hungry for ice cream. I’ll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone. What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?
OK - this is tricky... there are Ice Cream Rules...
coconut
macadamia nut
bacio

Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what’s in there?
Uni of Syd Student Card
DBS Credit Card
Westpac ATM card
POSB Debit Card
NSW Driver's license

You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let’s pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 career would be fun for you?
Director
Forensic Scientist
Detective
Producer

If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?
work harder
be wise with who u hang out with
spend more time with the family
Save more money!!!

Any how.... I'm bored and I dun want tonight to end :(

2007-11-11T21:55:00.000+11:00

excuse the language but ****

****
****
****

sigh, i've wanted to do that for a long long time...

I hate this unsettled feeling..... so many changes around me, work, friends....

who matters anymore? Do I?
I've been told many a times that even if I leave, the place will still go on, I'm replacable. So.....

why do i bother?

who cares if I leave? Have I even made a difference? Anywhere?

2007-11-09T23:26:00.000+11:00

Spent a whole day in the city today....
I'm less worried now that Jenny's no longer in Hospital..... I say she went to hospital just so that she could have icy poles, no but she was pretty crooked....

I've had a damage to my bank account today because I bought 2 tops and a necklace. OH well at least I can wear the top to a couple of occasions coming up. Even for CNY or Gavin's wedding.

7 of us met up at Four Points, Sheraton Hotel for seafood buffet today. there were 2 guys there that I first met today, then there was Sheree, Hayden, Linda and James. Linda had a 50% discount so the bill came up to 35 per head and the seafood was really fresh, so I had quite a fair share. In fact I had more than my money's worth. Also had a cosmopolitan for a first time and after, we walked to a pub and I also had a jagerbomb for a first time. A Jägerbomb is a shot of Jägermeister, dropped into a glass of red bull, and the drinker has to scull the drink. It was quite a nice mix but it's left me really dehydrated.

A Jägerbomb

Anyhow I think it is bed time for me.... the red bull is not doing me good.... i feel so alert but i'm going to bed 'cos I am tired.... Just wanted to blog about the seafood buffet that was so freakin good.... nothing like a fresh lobster and crabs....

NIte all

2007-11-05T22:54:00.000+11:00

been a while since I last updated.... but now that it is the start of my 2 week break... yes you heard me right... 2 weeks of unwinding for michelle in hopes that it will stop the stupid headaches that havent gone away. The past 2 weeks have been mental.... with a women's conference, a business breakfast event and a live dvd recording all in 14 days... anyhow, michelle will be spending most of her time sleeping.... unpacking the house that she moved into 3mnths ago... and catching up with friends...
Phones will be turned off... :)
So looking forward to the long sleep and knowing that I don't have to be up by a certain time to get to appointments and get things done... No I'm not being lazy... I'm just exhausted... too exhausted to even open a new bottle of water.... or look at souces of light for too long as it causes the headaches to turn into dizziness...

But it's all good... these 2 wks will do me good....but for now, go to this link

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=20671&l=0962a&id=628420933

and

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=20682&l=65f7c&id=628420933

to view photos from the live recording, if you're not already my friend on facebook. :)

Till the next time I update, hooroo!

2007-10-04T23:36:00.000+10:00

2 major news from today

1. Michelle was in a near-miss accident.... with not even enough space for a person to walk between the stupid white van and my car zippy. She was driving as per normal on a 2 lane road in a 60s zone... with no cars in front .... while the right lane was stuck because of a car in the front that was trying to turn right... and all of a sudden, a white van pulls out right in front of zippy...
1st reflex, Slam on the breaks
2nd reflex, Push the horn (mind you, i've only used the horn twice before this throughout my entire driving career)
3rd reflex, try and block everything that flung forward from the back seat and passenger seat... Including the laptop on the front seat....
4th reflex.... there was none.....
next thing you know, sharp pain down the right hand side of the neck down to the back.... a few hours later.... headache and nausea.

Conclusion: Michelle is ok, a little shaken with whiplash... but gone for a massage so now better with a heat pack over the neck... Zippy is also ok except for a slight scrape underneath the car..... and a little chip on the windscreen.... :(

2. After much consideration, Michelle is now a proud owner of a new Nintendo Wii..... as part of her R n R plan and the plan to sweat it out and increase her tolerance with the Boxing game.... :) *hint* Now pple know what to get for christmas!!!!! :)
She managed to bargain and save 80 bucks at JB HiFi.... Package bought includes 1 controller (with WiiPlay), 2 year extended warranty, 1 game (Call of Duty 3), Console (with 1 controller, 1 nunchuck and WiiSport)..........

What Michelle forgot was to get another nunchuck so that another player could be part of the boxing team.....

Hmmmm

Michelle needs to stop talking in 3rd person.......

2007-09-24T21:28:00.000+10:00

so.... what does one do when one is home sick with a massive headache that has stuck around for a week?

One slurps hot chicken abalone noodles with fried shallots and peanuts.... sits in front of the tv, watch SVU and curls up like a furball under a blanket...

Today, i had 3 people tell me to hang in there.... Today, someone made me hot chocolate with soy... and told me I could have as many marshmallows as I wanted.... Today, that someone also took time out and spent 2 hrs speaking to me.... which proved that they really cared....
sometimes, its the people that makes it worth it to hang on and not walk out...

Today, i saw someone brushing their teeth in the car next to mine. That person swallowed the remnants of the brush and made me gag....

.... toodles.....

2007-09-20T20:25:00.000+10:00

sigh... this is really sad... I can't actually remember the last time I was in SingaporE?

Not in a very good place at the moment... and it sucks...

I should be happy... but i'm not...
I really wonder if I am doing an ok job... maybe I'm trying to handle too many things at the same time again...

Feeling really withdrawn... am supposed to be excited but somehow everything else that is happening is causing me to not be...

I hate how when u experience a high, your emotions can tumble really quickly to a very low place... and I haven't even had sugar!!!!!

Oh and here's another random thought: Michelle only likes eating Muffin tops :P

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2007-09-17T17:37:00.000+10:00

So the latest news is, I'm going to muster up ALL my courage and enter a couple of film festivals... one's in France, one in Germany and one in Finland...

it's scary, but if I don't try, I'll never get a break into the market... even if I get knocked back, it won't be too bad because it's my first go, BUT I HOPE IT DOESN'T!

wanted to enter the Berlin one, but I won't risk it, 'cos if I do, I can't enter it into any other festivals...

Maybe, just maybe, this is the start of the fulfillment of my bigger future.

So due to the many rules and regulations, I will not be posting my film on the world wide web, so fans in Singapore, you'll just have to wait till I get back...

In the mean time, I'll put up a few more production shots from the edited film, not in chronological order... Enjoy!

2007-09-11T03:16:00.000+10:00

Woohoo!!!!!!!! I've finished shooting my production.... left with only VOs to record, I am through with the 2nd Rough Cut and it's all looking darn good if I can say so myself... so yes it's 3.20am, but I am happy....

Pictures up tomorrow....

2007-09-08T22:54:00.000+10:00

So.... what do u get when u're stressed, had another dairy overdoes and tired? YOU GET A CHILL and PIMPLES - easily... and add to that the start of spring with a combination of asthma? Sleepless nights full of wheezing and breathlessness...

Nonetheless...
Day 2 of production was good... but Michelle was too focused on the job and forgot that half the time, the door was open, it was raining and she was working in a t-shirt....

Oh well...

Production stills for day 2 shoot as follows...

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR TOMORROW MOTHER!~

2007-09-05T18:44:00.000+10:00

If I don't update regularly, please forgive me...

Production for The Emancipation, my Screen play for the Masters Project has begun. We had day 1 of the shoot yesterday and so far going very well. 2 more shoot days and the rest is the editing, which should be fun... Hoping to finish in the next 2 weeks so I can concentrate on the other work that need to happen.

I'll keep it short and get back to editing, but below are some production stills from last night's shoot. :)

2007-08-16T23:59:00.000+10:00

So...... this blog's turning extinct...

Havent had time... or the mental capacity to write in here....

The power of a touch...
Tonight, I realized how important it is to be able to talk with someone about things that are happening... tonight, I feel better... tonight, someone proved that words might have power, but not as much power as a touch could do to a person who is down and out. Tonight, someone could be genuine and a someone did... Tonight, someone poured out everything, shared their past and was willing to listen... Tonight, I found a new confidant... someone who has a proven track, someone who is not entangled in the same web... No pity parties, no fake smiles or concern, just pure life counsel.....

I want to last the distance, but in order to do so, I have to be careful... so very careful... Maybe I am pushing myself too hard...

I have 9 wks till my Masters project is due and I think so far I am doing ok... I can only tell how well I'm doing in 4 weeks when I'm finished with the shoot... People think I'm being too ambitious trying to finish a major production in 15 weeks, but if that makes me happy, I'm going to try and do it... in fact it will be good...

Need to hang in there... in a few months time, things would be better...

2007-08-01T22:46:00.000+10:00

so... in another hour, I am another yr older... this year's nothing special... I'm busy with work and if I can leave here before the clock strikes midnight tonight, and leave work tomorrow before 12am, I'd be happy... But chances of that happening is not looking positive... I have Uni tomorrow morning and get back only around 2pm. If Pam still wants to have lunch, I'll have lunch, if not I'll just go straight back into work. And there's a big meeting at 6pm with the Big boss, and after will be more work. Pathfinders is up on Friday morning which means the times for Pathfinders have to be done... and so do the rest of the times. I cannot believe it is already almost Thursday.

Uni's good and I'm enjoying it, even though its lots of hard work. I've got 12 weeks to finish a 20min film and so far I've finished the script. Huge and touches on some heavy topics... but at least there is hope...

On the personal life front, nothing else has happened. I am lucky if I get more than 5hrs a day of sleep.

I feel like crap... and have been feeling like that for the past week since Sunday. I think I might be coming down with a cold... Tis the season to be sneezy falalalala lalalala.... Apparantly the worst flu and cold season in Australia for quite a while

Sigh... i wonder if in my last year, I've made a difference. Have I made any impact? Have I done something right? Alright... i think i need to leave this entry as it is... writing when one's feeling a little unwell, stressed and a little emo's not a very good thing, especially just before a birthday... I can just see this entry going downhill, then I won't be too good for tomorrow.

this entry is so...... scattered...

2007-07-19T23:51:00.000+10:00

Hm I haven't written in a while, and rightfully so... the times that I have spent not working, I'm trying to catch up on sleep... Last week, I managed to clock 87hrs in 6days... This week hasnt been as hectic... so far clocking 59hrs in 5 days...

So far still standing and walking... As long as I keep walking, I'll be right...

I'm currently sitting here in the control room on edit suite 2, and putting Edit Suite 1 and the stack in slavery... I feel kinda funny being in my painting clothes, hoping that tonight, the cleaners won't come in... I've just had to paint the green screen for tomorrow's shoot for the weekend's conference....

The Big boss came in today... and it seems like everytime he walks in, I have food with me... The students were all having KFC and I had 2 wicked wings on a plate... so naturally I offered... and he hesitated... saying: Surely this is no good for anyone... but he still took one anyway.. hahaa I think he was rather happy seeing so much activity here in the studio with the students around, helping out with work...

As of yesterday (Wednesday - 18th July 07), I am an official student of the Masters of Film and Digital Image course of Uni of Syd... Classes start Tuesday and I was telling a few people today, I had a very big sense yesterday of the fact that this course would be opening up many doors for me in the future...

Also, just walking around in the campus gave me such a buzz and excitement that I felt like I was in a dream, in a fantasy land... The surroundings and atmosphere, a major contrast to where I've spent my last 4 years... Both being a good thing... Without the last 4 years, I wouldn't be where I am today... and without today, I won't be where I will be in the future...

Sometimes I wish certain people could just catch up with where I am with certain things... it's starting to frustrate me... but I just have to remind myself that people are different and sometimes, people take longer than others to catch on to what one's doing or thinking...

One day, I might actually get so frustrated that I'll just lay it out on the table, be generous with my thoughts and not hold back... and if they take it, they take it, if not, too bad for them...

Currently Listening to: Better together - Jack Johnson

2007-07-10T20:59:00.000+10:00

seriously... i don't want to be the person that says no all the time...
It seems like at the moment, that's all I'm saying to people with requests...
Don't want to be seen as the pessimist...
But I don't want to run myself down into the ground...

Can I handle this pressure?
Am I bigger than this?
Will I stand and have the strength to keep walking?
Is there a light at the end of this tunnel?
Are these shoulders too small? Am I too young? Am I not experienced enough?

I've just had my first break since 8.45am this morning...
meetings after meetings... and now i finally get to sit down and have a meal... a frozen meal at that... curry that is not at all spicy... rice that was frozen n thawed...

No once again, this is not a pity party.... i just needed somewhere to rant and rave... there's no one else here in the office... J's out somewhere watching a movie... K's sick... C's on holidays... I've been on the phone with N and it kinda settled me down a bit... not as stressed as I was prior to the conversation...

I wrote a to do list this morning at 2+am... and so far, out of 36 items, I have accomplished 12... the rest needs to be done by the end of this week.... and.... Its only Tuesday... the list is bound to grow as the week progresses, not to mention the Conference stuff that needs to happpen...

The next 2 weeks look crazy and immediately after, I start Uni...
But maybe the pain is worth it...
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3rd Grand Aunt passed away this morning...

Yes I feel sad... because she was nice to me... times like these make me wish I could be back in Singapore and have a bit of a breathing space to grieve... as much as you like to deny... whenever someone u know passes away, you feel a sense of grieve...

But today I haven't given myself the chance to stop... and think... But now that as I'm writing this, I've slowed down and realize how much a death could affect a person, even if you haven't spent loads of time together...

I know 3rd Grand Aunt always asked about me... and i think she worried about me being far away alone... and it makes me even more sad... knowing that I cannot say goodbye face to face...

I now urge all of you readers... appreciate the people around you... don't wait till its too late... life can be so vulnerable... tell those u care that you care... verbal or non verbal, make the effort... because if its too late, you cannot turn back time...
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To end on a lighter note before I get straight into work.... its nice to be told that someone actually cares...

2007-07-10T01:39:00.000+10:00

A new and very timely song...

Worthy by Nikki Fletcher
Copyright 2007

Could it be
You're in control now I see
I don't know it all
But if you stripped it all away
I'd still be able to say

You are God
None can compare you're the one
Gave us our breathe
And in your shadow I will wait
To hear your voice and know your ways

Glory
All that has breathe give him glory
Lift up our god who is always
Beginning and end you are

Let the earth sing
We lift up our hands and exalt thee
Redeemer of all you have mercy
above all be glorified

Worthy
You alone are worthy
You alone are holy
You alone are God

Yeap I don't understand everything now... but it's all ok...
Just need to keep walking and stay standing...

2007-07-04T00:00:00.001+10:00

How very true....

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

2007-07-02T18:11:00.000+10:00

the moment of truth has arrived... I've lived alone for the last week and so far I am enjoying it... I like how things stay where I've left them... and I've had my first house guest..

But today... just 30mins ago... i suddenly felt this overwhelming sense of helplessness and maybe a little of loneliness... Not so much in the home environment... but at work...
Micah's left the job for good... and Anita, my housemate of 3 yrs, is leaving tomorrow for good... Another time of transition for me, and I hope I'll cope... its just too many things piled up together, and people all leaving at the same time... in 4 days, Bonar leaves for good too...

No I'm not depressed... just a little overwhelmed and a little emotional...
I never thought I'd admit it... feels like something's been ripped out... a little like I've been left in the lurch...

What did it for me was walking in the cold, dark foyer... when it was only 5pm... and there was no one else around, not a sound or a being... I thought keeping busy will stop me from going there... and I haven't done much to keep my plates full... its just FULL all on its own....

but I can't stay in this state... i have to move on... there's too much work to do... many changes to make... broken things to be fixed... people to look after... a burden to carry... a studio to run... TV programmes to be made... emails to answer...

Surely I have enough strength to get through... surely I won't crumble and fall...

2007-06-20T00:17:00.000+10:00

"extra-tropical" cyclonic winds forecasted for sydney tonight :(

winds between 85km/h n 125km/h

third storm in a month.... it hasnt really stopped raining since 3wks ago......... and its starting to be miserable....

and i didnt get a chance to park in the garage tonight as the rain was to heavy for me to see properly for an awkward position.... so thankfully there arent any big trees nearby... lets just hope the smaller plants hold up.....

:(

2007-06-18T23:24:00.001+10:00

its rainy nights like tonight that I am thankful for so many things.... 1. a hooded jacket, 2. a reliable car that i know won't break down on me... 3. Glasses so that I can see the lights from oncoming cars and the road in front of me, despite the heavy downpour, 4. the heater at home, 5. the many layers of blankets, 6. Warm PJs and long johns... Why in the world are they called Long Johns, I have no idea... 7. A ROOF OVER MY HEAD

Long day at work to catch up for the loss last week... the start of another 3 crazy non-stop weeks... so here's hoping I hold up.... Im a lil' hungry but i think i shall not eat now.... I'll just wait till tomorrow morning...

anyway Happy Father's Day to dad for last weekend... i got a little confused cos of the different dates in Sydney n Singapore, therefore the late wishes.... I know I say this time and time again... but Thank you Thank you Thank you... for all that you do...

Should go to bed now.... getting up in 6hrs to go to work again so... i'll sign off here....

2007-06-18T19:34:00.001+10:00

hahaha this made my day...

2007-06-16T22:28:00.000+10:00

So.... i'm finally back to blog...
Benny Hinn's come and gone, and yes ironically, the healing minister comes and I get end up getting sick from running around like a mad woman... well my week kinda started 2 weeks ago without stopping... so by Monday (Queen's birthday) the throat was feeling a little sore, on Tuesday, the roof of my mouth was swollen, the throat felt swollen... and by tuesday noon, i had the sniffles....

I clearly wasn't thinking when i planned this but Wednesday I took the screen production faculty to the Powerhouse Museum for a the SPecial FX exhibition, as well as the other exhibitions that were there... and I even drove into the city... driving back was a nightmare, and wasn;t helped by the peak hour traffic... By then, i was so tired i felt like a drunk... Got back to work and had to walk from my office to the other building and had trouble walking in a straight line... I got to Stephens' desk and by then was 'nua-ing' on the desk ledge cos i was that tired... ok for those who don't understand 'nua-ing', its like..... leaning in a very lazy fashion.... Back-bone-less one would say...

By thursday, the cold got worse... didnt sound as bad but the head was congested and I was getting nasty headaches and nausea from the amount of mucus in the system... I was told to leave the office 5... so I did...

Friday morning, i had planned to go in during the afternoon for the Faculty head meeting but when I got up, I lost my voice and had difficulty communicating with pple over the phone, so i called office to make sure the meeting was still on, and was told not to come in as pple didnt want my germs... By friday noon, i regained my voice... but still nassly and coughing up the lungs... and the same goes for today... was going to go in to work but stayed home instead cos next week onwards, I have a few crazy weeks.... And the housemate and I decided to go catch a movie this evening.... caught Shrek 3... lousy ending and a let down.... but.......... something Kinda funny happened... well i've got mixed emotions about it... its funny yet kinda insulting/upsetting..... i queued and got tickets..... and flashed my housemate's student card so we could get one ticket at a student rate and because I still dont have my student card from Uni yet, I was prepared to pay the adults price... the guy said "OK, that would be $23 thanx..." didnt think much of it, paid and walked away, just as we were about to go up the escalators to go into the cinema, i looked at my tickets and to my shock and horror,
it said "CHILD" grrrrrrrrrrr

Now tell me... do i look like a kid or not? That's what I wore to the movies

actually don't answer that question grrrr... so anyway i msged a few pple and this was the response i got:
1. Don't be insulted - u just saved 5 bucks! Always look on the bright side of life!
2. Take it while you can :~

Hahaha so like I said, i have mixed emotions to it because the guy serving prolly wasn't even that much older than me!!!! and to think i'm turning 22 in august... and yet still mistaken for a kid...... MEOW>......

2007-06-08T23:13:00.000+10:00

The weather's been crazy.... strong heavy winds, flash floods, people being washed off in their cars, heavy rains, chilling wind, MASSIVE Surfs...

hmmm some of us staff members went out for dinner at an indian restaurant tonight... and I just got home... Dinner was a farewell for Geoff, Felicity and Therese, as well as a congratulations for my TR n Masters acceptance...

It kinda felt wierd but I had a lovely night... Shared with Pam some beef curry, lamb bryiani, Garlic Naan and a lamb naan... and had 1 1/2 glasses of wine as well as some pappadums...

I'm officially tired... 14hrs over 4 days don't really work... I think i'm just getting old...

Brain's starting to shut down so i shall sign off here... this blog's not comprehensible...

2007-06-06T07:35:00.000+10:00

only 4hrs ago, I was still sitting here editing... but now i'm back, recharged with my powernap.... I left my wallet at work thinking "ah i won't need it seeing its so late..." But when I got into the car and was halfway down the wakehurst, I looked up and sure enough, i was going to need my wallet... See, Tuesday's normally cheap petrol day... but because of the crazy hours, I didn't realize yesterday was Tuesday... or should I say Wednesday by the time I realized... My Fuel Indicator was FLASHING at me... So i thought ok... i'll go home, surely I have some cash stashed away somewhere.... i always do.... I get home, n searched for about 10 mins, only to find a single 20 dollar bill... which is not too bad... so this morning before i fell asleep I reminded myself to get petrol on the way to work.... and this morning when I left, I got petrol for $1.35 a litre....grrrrrrrrrrrrrr my Miserable 20 bill gave me only half a tank... oh well... better den a flashing tank... I can feel up next Tuesday, if I remember it is Tuesday...

Amazing how i walked away from the edit 4hrs ago, and came back to view it n it looks much better den i expected! :) I'm kinda satisfied... teaching this morning......

right... think i should sign off here 'cos staff meeting starts in like 5mins....

2007-06-06T00:48:00.000+10:00

*yawnzz*
V drink's not working.... only 1/3 into clip one of Easter 07....
and i'm craving goreng pisang :(
I got my scissorlift licence today... so now i can operate it on my own!!!
One more to the list... :) brilliant!
so... i'm just waitin for the stupid video to render AGAIN... nothing new... sometimes I wonder why I even bother.. hahaha

sigh... 1 video almost finished... just exporting at the moment.... if that's ok, then it will be 1 down and 5 to go...

hmm maybe it's time for me to go home....

2007-06-02T23:35:00.000+10:00

So today would have been perfect for the use of a GPS... i knew there was reason I should get one... hahaha *keep giving yourself reasons michelle...* well maybe in a few months... i might get one for my birthday...

Anyhow, i finally pulled my finger out and went house hunting today... had a list of 16 places to look at but because the timings were all so close and was spread between different suburbs, I ended up only looking at 8... and clocked about 50kms on the car just driving back and forth.... Anyhow out of the 8, i applied for 2 but paid a deposit for 1. A little pricey for my liking, but what can one do? There is a price to pay for 1. apartments that are not too old, 2. security system, 3. Gas cooking, 4. close to ammenities, 5. close to work... 6. not too far from the city... 7. Privacy...
I should hear back on Monday whether I got the place or not....

So the last place that I wanted to look at was on the same street as one of my bosses, and I had initially thought "Oh, maybe Jeff knows them.. maybe they're neighbours or something..." but while driving there, I had a thought that it would have been funny if it was Jeff's place... but i said to myself "nah... jeff's got a tenant downstairs...

So I drive to the street, 15mins before the inspection time, counted the numbers on the houses, 2, 4, 6, 8, 10, 12, 14, 16, 18, 20, 22..... ah 22B is where it is... i looked up..... and sure enough it was Jeff's house.... I couldnt help but burst out laughing... Then I thought, that would have been a funny story for tonight's dinner... hahaha living with the boss...

Then future faculty meetings at Jeff's wouldnt be a big problem even if it was at 6am! hahahaha I'd just have to crawl out of bed... put on nice clothes... brush the hair, wash the face, walk up the steps and THERE I AM! and i don't have to worry about not being able to drink... 'cos i wouldnt have to drive home! hahaha

I got a ride tonight to Jeff's for the faculty dinner... got Stephen to pick me up on the way, so that I could drink hahahaha... no i'm not alcoholic... it's just nice to be able to drink once in a while when u're not at home... Nvm... in a yr I can do that no problem....

We had thai tonight... n the food was nice... although there's probably lots of MSG... 'cos i am so flippin thirsty now.... and i've also noted to myself, never to drink on an empty stomach... worse still, an empty HUNGRY stomach hahaha

Stephen laughed 'cos I don't think he's seen me go so red upon drinking before... in fact his words were "u've even gone a shade of brown" to which my joke was "so maybe when i was really sunburnt, i wasn't sunburnt" hahahaha... I had my coat on in the house too cos i was feeling cold... but aparantly i was hot.... I felt cold but Mr T said i was burning.... this is what i call good circulation hahahahha

Anyhow I made good use of the Mid season sale and bought new kitchen stuff for my new place... saved about $50 on a dinner set that i've always wanted.... White Basics from Maxwells and Williams, Mondo Set... wanted to wait till i moved... but figured it wasnt worth waiting because of the sale... so :) I've been wanting that set for the last 3 yrs... so because I want the GPS system too.... i might wait a few more years? and I need a new monitor for my PC... and a new rice cooker... but I might just get that in Singapore... ordered new pots n pans too... a savings of $170... Hmm I should be set for this new place.... right think its bed time for me.... till laters

2007-06-01T22:42:00.000+10:00

hmm.... i either 1. Haven't had enough sleep *which is highly possible* or 2. Stressed *also very highly possible or 3. hormonal changes...

OK the above sounds strange but not as strange as this: I have pimpleSSSS on my forehead... just like in Pri n Sec school days... :(

I hope it doesn't become worse... because that would not be good....

I've never really had pimple problems.... n I'm hoping this is not the start of it :(

2007-05-31T20:53:00.000+10:00

I never thought I could be so concerned...

note to self: Its all going to be ok....

2007-05-31T15:45:00.000+10:00

I was thinking this morning, it would really suck to be a possum! hahaha

Yes sounds random but no its not... just read the next section

I was driving home from work this morning around 1am... so I was tired but was still alert... as i was turning into a street, I had to slam on the brakes and swerve... because there was a possum in the middle... at the same time, there was a taxi coming the opposite direction who also did the same... and as I slammed on the brakes, the possum ran in the opposite direction... so I managed to dodge the possum... but the possum however, did not have such good fate... it ran right into the wheels of the taxi... so there was the screech of the tires... and then as the taxi moved off, i looked back in my rear vision mirror, and all i could see was squashed fur...

eekkkkkkkkk

2007-05-30T23:57:00.000+10:00

sigh... it's the end of May.... almost half the year's gone... Time goes really quickly this days... I wished I had more time to do what I have to do...

Its been a few interesting weeks and there are some things that I was hoping for results but still have not seen any... I guess I just have to be patient and wait...

Today I was reminded that capacity is equivalent to patience... so maybe my capacity is still small in certain aspects of life... I guess sometimes it takes time for us to have our patience built up, tried and tested before the circumstance becomes bigger.... for if one's capacity does not meet the circumstance, one could blow up... OUCH

Sigh... not to self.... go a little slower please....

Billy Joel's Vienna

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight (tonight)
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right(you're right)

You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.

And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

2007-05-24T22:54:00.000+10:00

Today's been a veryyyyyyyyyyy veryyyyyyyyyyyyyy good day...
I feel like I've finally broken through a barrier... an invisible one at that... I know I'm probably still walking in the valley... but I've had a few boosts that will keep me going, and it will take alot and i mean A LOT... to wipe this smile off my face... This journey's been tough, and I know it will be tougher, but I am stronger... I know I can do it.

Ok for those who have not heard, 1. I received an email today regarding the Masters application. I've been accepted, classes starting July. I need to get a bit more paperwork done before then but should not be a problem.

I was walking around the offices sharing the good news, I went down to the Cafe and ordered lunch... a $5 BLT burger *oh sooooo goood* and as I was waiting for it to be ready, I got a phone call from the immigration lawyer, who had tried calling yesterday while I was teaching. They called and informed me that my visa had been granted, despite the fact that 3 days ago, they called to tell me that I was 1/3 approved for the visa, and I had to get chest xrays and medicals (which I was about to book in for this afternoon, but would have meant that I had to spend another few hundred bucks). They told me that for some reason, the Immigration Dept. had decided to overlook all the conditions and grant me the visa.

So this 5 month wait has been fruitful... the work, tears, sweat, blood and stress have all paid off... including all the paper cuts from getting Applications ready!

This is the year of Favour! and All things work together for good! God's faithful n I know I'm blessed...

So I thought I'd share what I wrote in my application, that probably gave my application a boost:

Q: Please Outline your reasons for applying to this course
A: It is my desire to develop my skills to an advanced level, have a better understanding of new technology and the trends of contemporary media, as well as improve my ability to combine multi-cultural approaches (e.g. Easter and Western) into the art form. I believe that the course will allow me to better my skills in the medium through workshops and the exploration of film theories and production processes. The theory levtures will enable me to balance my practical knowledge of production processes, and give me the abiltity to critically analyse films. Having experience in both digital video and stills photography, I am certain that the introduction to 16mm film in the Studio Practice Seminar Modules will boraden my experience and allow me to apply knowledge in 16mm film in my future projects and work place.

I believe that the Film Theory Modules and the Memory Time and Identity elective will facilitate my passion for bringing together different cultures into a single story on film. Giving me the ability to have a better understanding of story telling through perspectives in the story. Having a basic understanding of the Heroes Journey in Script-writing, I know that enrolling into the Creative Writing - Scriptwriting Workshops will allow me to have a higher level of skill in Script-writing, for application into my future projects. I will also be enabled to have more skills to pass on to my future students.

I believe that at this point in time, I have the motivation, energy, desire and resources at hand to complete the course. I know that the successful completion of this Masters will be an invaluable enhanvement for my future career and be a significant credential for future training purposes. It will also provide the opportunity for me to discover and explore futher the voice that will tell stories of the Eastern and Western cultures and give me the ability to contribute more to and have a greater influence on contemporary society.

Ha reading that excites me! Who would have thought... the person who didnt do too well academically in Primary n Secondary school, would have finished a degree... and move on to a Masters...
I know the reason why... i've found my passion and what drives me...

MINDY TAN SHU YING... Listen to ur big sister... START THINKING ABOUT WHAT U WANT TO DO IN LIFE! :P I know u think i'm just nagging again but i'm being SERIOUS!!! U kinda have 1 more year to think about which path u want to take... so choose wisely...

Oops... now i think i live up to the nickname i get from some of my students... YODA... hahaha

Right... back to work... just thought i'd share that exciting news...

in Dolly Chan of Under One roof's accent: SO es-ci-tiiing...

2007-05-23T21:03:00.000+10:00

wheeeeeee.............
Michelle's elated... and that's a good thing... :)

2007-05-22T18:08:00.000+10:00

I hate frozen green peas... eeekk

2007-05-21T17:39:00.000+10:00

The brownies were well received... even at 9am... when its normally too early for chocolate...

I'm sitting here in an office that smells like a dead something... not quite sure what it is yet n property team can't seem to find it... I actually noticed the smell 2 days ago but its becoming stronger :(

Its actually put me off my lunch this afternoon but there ain't nothin i can do...
Anyway its almost 6pm and i'm sitting in the office with my laptop hooked up but MSN web sucks... and same goes for microwave dinners... what do u do when there's no one else to cook for... its so flippin boring....
Stir fry chicken with hokkien noodles... McCain's Healthy Choice style...hahaha looks good n smells good until u put it in the mouth... *bleahhh*

Another late nite tonight... so I'm chillin while i eat my dinner 'cos once i go into full steam, I wont be stopping...

Last nite was my first nite I was home at 10.30pm... but could not fall asleep until about 1am :(

sigh... life n its interesting little twists....

I was chatting with a friend on the phone... and she mentioned that I'm in my life at the moment where there so many things are up in the air and that it must be annoying... and I agree that it is annoying... but hopefully soon some of the ends will tie up and then I can move on... and hopefully there will be good news... although some of that good news might cause those around me to be upset... But it's ok... If its for me... it will come eventually... all in good timing...
One day, initiatives will be taken... and I won't have to push so hard anymore...
One day, people will understand... One day, someone will be proud... One day, someone will appreciate what I do... One day, my dreams will come to pass...

I just need to remember to keep walking... this tunnel is not as dark as it was anymore because there is a bit of hope...

My creative juices need to flow a little more too... need to see how we can improve what we do here...

2007-05-20T14:50:00.000+10:00

hmmm my dark chocolate merlot cranberry brownies smell soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good.... whahahaa

and u have to admit it looks prettty darn good too.
:)

2007-05-18T20:50:00.000+10:00

So even though its been a rough week, I'm still standing and have had a little bit of a boost today, despite only having 2hrs sleep last nite or should i say this morning...

Got to work at 9.30am and worked non-stop till 3.45pm when I realized I did not have lunch, so I sent the work-experience student off to get me some lunch. Second day in a row I've had a Bacon and Egg Sandwich with BBQ sauce for lunch... Yes I know sounds wierd cos its normally for breakfast... but when u're as busy as me, who cares what time is breakfast... plus, breakfast is like one or my favourite meals of the day because its not as rushed as the other meals...

Had to re-shoot some stuff today because someone had accidentally rewound the video in the camera to take a look but didn't put it back in the same spot... and the pple who went out to shoot while I was teaching class did not check too... sooooooooooooo the things that were initially recorded got recorded over!!!

Back to the boost, I've created a breakthrough in regards to YouTube videos at work and an email was sent around...

Here's a section of what was said in the email trail:

-----Original Message-----
From: Deelea
Sent: Friday, 18 May 2007 12:55 PM
To: PPP
Subject: Michelle Tan has created perfection

Hi PP
Michelle has encoded the latest cctv video to test and it looks incredible. It hasn't been made public yet because there are changes being made, and because it's a bit early but if you want to check it out log in to the cccof YT account for a look.

D

From: PPP
Sent: Friday, 18 May 2007 3:09 PM
To: Deelea
Subject: RE: Michelle Tan has created perfection

Awesome. Great job. Go Michelle!
Even looks good in full screen mode.
The script now needs to be tidied up so the presenters are looking up to the video quality.
Hmmm. One thing leads......
Love you guys.
Phil P

From: Deelea
Sent: Friday, 18 May 2007 4:41 PM
To: Michelle Tan
Subject: FW: Michelle Tan has created perfection

Kudos to you!

So as you can see, sometimes all the anguish is worth it... even if it meant trying different encoders while u're half-awake at 4am...
All we have to do now is to keep it up...

Also for a certain someone in my circle of friends, the drought has been broken... which hopefully means it will also break the same drought for the rest of us... If you don't understand, DON'T WORRY! Nothing harmful... only for that circle of friends who were listening to get it. :)

So at this hour in time, i've clocked 74hrs of work in 5 days...come to think of it, it's kinda scary.... and the workload is only just starting to increase... more so in the next few months... plus an extra class to teach in Semester 2...

I wonder how my application is going for the masters... Heard back from the Immigration Lawyer today... Step 1 of 3 of the paperwork has been approved...

Anyway my work here is almost done, so I shall end this blog.... and remind myself that THE CAMELS ARE ON THEIR WAY BACK HOME... :)

2007-05-18T01:36:00.000+10:00

Sigh.... rendering kills me... its taking 8mins to render 352 frames, an equivalent of 15secs worth of video :(
STOoooopid Motion...

Its been a long week... its like being on a mental n emotional rollercoaster... and now that its 2 1/2 hrs into Friday morning, and the fact that i'm still here at work waitin for a stupid clip to render, makes me wonder, why the hell can't someone just create a program that does not require rendering??????? WHY????? If I had the brains, I WOULD DO IT!!! soooooooooooooooooooooo many editors would be so grateful...

grrrr....

Also, whoever said teaching was easy? I don't think i've ever felt so drained emotionally and mentally... Now i feel for my teachers in the past who tried teaching me chinese... or accounts... -_-

Anyhow... the wedding that we went to shoot at was interesting... it showed us what NOT to do for your own wedding... 1. Lousy MC and boring 2. UNORGANIZED 3. unprepared speech... 4. Your singers NEED to know the words to songs they are singing, or at least remember to bring the flippin' scores!
However, one good thing that came out of that event was the introduction to the song Call off the search by Katie Melua. Beautiful song with meaningful words...

"Call Off The Search"

I won't spend my life
Waiting for an angel to descend
Searching for a rainbow with an end
Now that I've found you I'll call off the search
And I won't spend my life
Gazing at the stars up in the sky
Wondering if love will pass me by
Now that I've found you I'll call off the search

Out on my own
I would never have known this world
That I see today
And I've got a feeling
It won't fade away

And I won't end my days
Wishing that love would come along
Because you are in my life where you belong
Now that I've found you I'll call off the search
INTERLUDE
Now that I've found you I'll call off the search [x2]

Copyright Katie Melua

Reason why i'm still blogging is because the other computer crashed while i was trying to create the video... so its rebooting now.... but because the programme is soooooo big it takes quite a while to load the application... :(

Anyhow... Hopefully i get home before the sun rises, and I'm not planning to come into work in the morning... -_- Will come in maybe 10 or 11am...

Right... the other comp's done loading... so back to work... till laters...
Too many things in the head and heart but not quite sure how to put down in words...

2007-05-12T01:50:00.000+10:00

2nd night in a row that it's almost 2 n I'm still up... had 1 hr sleep last night as there was too many things going through the head. Just got home from helping Ting's sons with their school art project... so I spent my entire evening Cutting and Constructing Pyramids, creating "humans" with wire... the boys went to bed at 11am but I kept going, and ended up at the same time chatting with Ting till 1.15am.

I don't think I'll ever understand how she feels... losing a loved one and having to bring up two full-on kids, and at the same time, have the kids ask difficult questions like, Why does daddy have to die, and where is heaven? I salute her and am amazed at her strength and courage... I guess your survival skills all just kick in when you have to go through something like that... We bought her a box of chocolates and a bouquet of flowers today for Mother's Day...

So many things have been changing around me lately... and the atmosphere's been shifting... scary yet at the same time exciting... I've had a major understanding of some thing that's happening at the moment and have come to the realization of the weight of what this thing might do to my future... Hopefully in the near future, there will be good news...

Anyway I should retire to the bed that is screaming for me....
and at the same time, remind myself that THIS TIME NEXT YEAR, THINGS WILL HAVE CHANGED...

I have to drive more than an hr tomorrow to shoot a wedding... and not worth the money at all.. oh well see it as an investment, to many more recommendations, AT THE RIGHT PRICE. -_-

2007-05-10T22:54:00.000+10:00

I'm elated
*silly smile*

^^
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But pls michelle... BREATHE........ don't go overboard and kill it for yourself!
Note to self... BE SMART!

2007-05-09T16:15:00.000+10:00

15mins ago, after putting down the phone, I felt like a little girl who got her dream barbie house as a present... Or like a kid who has been handed a bit lollipop with his favourite flavour...

random? Never Mind... only I have to understand, because it probably only means anything to me... but i wonder if it means anything to the person at the other end of the line...

2007-05-04T22:05:00.000+10:00

Having approval feels really good... but i must remember to go slow...
Note to self: Don't run too quickly! Don't spoil it for yourself...

Now lets see where it goes from here. :)

2007-05-03T21:00:00.000+10:00

when your potential is under pressure, do not take it to a place of limitation. Instead, take it to a place of expansion. DO NOT RETREAT!

2007-05-01T22:34:00.000+10:00

Just had a very random thought

Singapore celebrates Labour Day by giving everyone a public holiday, but not in Sydney...

So here's a very novel idea... what if everyone worked ONLY on labour day and not for the rest of the time.... how bout that eh?

Hahaha ok... obviously bonkers... think its time to go home...

2007-05-01T00:26:00.000+10:00

I locked my freakin' car keys in the car today at the chiropractor!!! So much for a safety feature... caused me more trouble instead... I do have to admit... the brain's not really functioning...

1/4 finished with designing the company's website... more tedious than I thought... oh well I know what I want so that's fine... I'll just keep at it...

Graduation Excitement's over... same for the Party n celebrations... but I have somethings to look forward too... some of which I shall reveal when the time is right... New things on my radar keeps me excited....

2007-04-29T12:28:00.000+10:00

Did I mention, I love my new camera that is 10m Water Proof?

As Promised,
More photos

Graduation Photos

The Great Hall of Sydney Uni 1

The Great Hall of Sydney Uni 2

The Great Hall of Sydney Uni 3

End of Ceremony

The 3 crazy gals

Pam n I

Gold Coast Photos

Hazelnut n Coconut Ice Cream from Gelatisimo

Cat Woman n Me in MovieWorld's All Star Parade

Us girls and Bugs Bunny n Tazzie the Devil in MovieWorld

Execution?

Me and the Tallest Guy in the world in Ripley's Believe IT or Not Museum

Apartment Pool 1

Apartment Pool 2

The Clouds on the way into Gold Coast, taken from the Plane

Old Photos from Port Stephen's

2007-04-28T23:42:00.000+10:00

Ok... So i've graduated... and thankfully they found a gown that fits me... They had to borrow it from a different uni, at no extra charge! :)

I shall not say too much now as it is 11.37pm and I'm back at work... Yes... gone are the holidays... but I shall let some of the pictures do the talking and maybe blog more tomorrow...

Graduated with 4 passes n 4 distinctions... could have done better i reckon, if not for that stupid back problem that persisted and caused agony... But never mind... I shall try harder for the Masters degree... We went out for lunch after and Jeff mentioned that when I do the masters, I should ask to see if I could upgrade it to a Masters with Honours... Seriously have never thought of it before... but now that it's been placed in front of me by someone I trust and respect... I might have to give it a thought...

Uni of Sydney has received my application... next is to wait for the response....
And I sure hope I do get in...

Ok enuff ramblings. Here it is!

Video of Grad

In the Great Hall of Uni of Syd... Glad to see I'm not the only one with problems seeing over podiums!

2007-04-21T23:30:00.000+10:00

I mentioned in the previous post about the grad gown and it being too long, so i thought i'd put it up for viewing... I FLY in 6 HRS!!!!!!!! Not taking the mobile and no internet... OR laptop for that matter... so :)

who's the happy camper? I AM!!! hahahaha

alright till laterzs..... 6 days time...

2007-04-21T00:33:00.000+10:00

So... the big three weeks have come and gone... and Yes I am still standing :)
That's always a good thing... So many things have happened but this head of mine can't really remember much. One thing I know... I LEAVE FOR THE GOLD COAST IN 1 DAY!!!

Graduation is in a week and I drove out with Kathryn to Chester Hill this morning in an attempt to collect the graduation gowns. Had called earlier last week to ask about sizes because I was worried that it might not fit. Spoke to Chris and told him that I was vertically challenged. He said we'd be right... got there... tried it on and the medium fit Kathryn perfectly... I tried the same and to my shock and horror, it was too big... EVILNESS took over and everyone burst out laughing... 'cos I looked like a little Harry Potter putting on a big professsor's gown... :( So.... Chris very kindly said that he'd go on a hunt in other unis for smaller sized gowns and hopefully no extra charges... GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
Special... not

Went to ikea for lunch as it was on the way back from chester hill... SWEDISH MEATBALLS!!!!!!!! Hmmmm and then got back to work where I paraded in kathryn's gown, in front of a few people just to embarrass myself even more... Oh well...

Application for the Masters of Film and Digital Image is finished and sent. Hopefully I get accepted... It feels right...
I shall have Favour! I shall post some of the application answers here tomorrow when I get to work...

The body's used to staying up late and even though i'm not working tonight, i'm still wide awake and it's 1.02am... oh well... I might leave this post here for now and go design my production company's website...

will write more when I can think of more things to say... i hate writer's block :(

till laterz

2007-04-14T00:46:00.000+10:00

This time next year, things will have changed, FOR THE BETTER.

ARISE AND KEEP WALKING.

The 16 things I have on my list will be fulfilled, one way or another.

2007-04-08T22:35:00.000+10:00

When you are in the valley, walk it out. Once the work is done, you will be part of the answer, not the problem. Keep walking. Do not stop and keep your vision in front of you.

2007-03-30T22:19:00.000+10:00

Have I stepped onto the wrong path?
Why is it that when you try and please someone and meet their expectations, people say things... and yet when you make it a point not to run after and live up to people's expectations but do things in such a way suits you, people still say things?
Have I just wasted all my time, energy and life, or have i actually made a difference in the lives of anyone? What kind of legacy will I leave? Will I die and not matter at all?

Theres like 36 weeks till the end of the week... have I done anything right at all in the last few months? Or have I just been a waste of space, a waste of time.

I thought that battle had been finished... I thought there was a forward movement. But has all this just been a side step? A denial? A distraction?

Good enough...
Companionship? Trust? Servanthood? Leadership?
Responsibility? Wisdom? Patience? Strong-will?
Commitment? Accountability? Humility? Forgiveness?

Maybe not...
Isolation. Anger. Dissapointment, from self to self and to others, from others to self. Fakeness. Regret. Stupidity. Rashness. Weakling. Coward. Shallowness.

Why do we humans take things for granted?

Is there strength to keep going? Or does the road seem too dark and too long?

Why can't I just have 48hrs a day?

Define success. Define happiness.

2007-03-28T20:51:00.000+10:00

argh

I hate it when the nose becomes a tap, leaking and wasting fluid... and yet at the same time, stuffed like a seriously clogged up sewerage system...

2007-03-19T20:52:00.000+11:00

I think i might have found myself a new skill to add to my resume:

ASIAN HAGGLING SKILLS

hahaha
I got myself a camera today... n i haggled at JB Hi-Fi and got $150 off the price :)
This camera's cool and I have been thinkin about it for almost a year now... and seeing that I will need it for the trip I decided it was time... Waterproof 10m and Shockproof 1.5m high... which means if I'm the user and I accidentally drop it, it doesn't matter because i'm not even 1.5! whahahaha

oh well... just thought i'd quickly blog... so much for not working late tonight!

I must say i'm impressed with my recent creative skills. Seems like in the past week i've been churning out quite a bit of creative material... It's a good thing and may it not stop there! :)

2007-03-18T21:44:00.000+11:00

Hmm... if you could remember, i mentioned last year in one of my blogs about a big film shoot at work... and as I am typing out this entry, the entire film is playing in front of my eyes on national television. Joanne Lees: Murder in the Outback...
I shall take a look to see if CCTV or my name's even on the credits... my guess is not.. but hey :)

One day... one day I shall have my name on credits on national tele, then the cinema....

Who says dreaming is wrong? :)

At the rate i'm going with the short film scripts and ideas, i reckon I might have a shot....
Found another short film festival today that I could enter in... the prize isn't too bad.... local festival... but that's a start :)

So goal for this year as a company was to enter 2 short film fest... Looks like we might actually outdo ourselves.... 3! :)
Oh i'm so excited about the future :)

2007-03-18T00:07:00.000+11:00

i have officially finished 2 short film scripts in a day...

not too bad of an effort if i could say so myself...

Marc's now in the army... i wonder how he is? I hope he's doing fine... n i hope he remembers all the things i told him on the phone...

sigh.... i'm tired now after all that use of the brain juice.. think i might actually go to bed and recharge. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow.

2007-03-17T17:13:00.000+11:00

Oh i love it when I do not have writer's block.....

I've finished 1 short film script in 3 hours....

Not too bad... :)

Attempting to finish another one by tonight.

2007-03-12T19:18:00.000+11:00

The Journey
by me...

Walking alone,
in this dark alleyway
With nothing on his back
except memories to help stay sane.

A journey so long
that only he could walk for his own,
not with a friend, nor a mentor,
just so that he could grow.

Despite the pain, the tears and sweat,
the loss of friendships and all his regrets.
He remembers the times when he's used his voice.
One others longed, but never the guts to say it strong.

Each step he takes,
he reminds himself,
that as long as he moves,
the nearer his regain.

Answerable to God
and only to himself
He knows that only he
would know if he's done well.

2007-03-10T01:17:00.000+11:00

It's 1.15am n i'm still awake...
this week's been a long week... late nights, long days, but all shall be well...

As usual, the stress levels are still at an all time high... but the good news is... i have booked myself a holiday... one that I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllly realllllllyyyy need...
Will be going to Gold Coast for 6 days... with Kathryn....
Flights were cheap $145 inclusive of taxes, return!
its been awhile since I've been to the Theme Parks...
I'm looking forward.... just 6 weeks to go.....

Oh here's my faith statement..... This weekend my irritating back problem shall be healed! Have had enough...... I want my freedom back...
Theo Wolmerans is comin and Ive been preparing.....
Ok... to those who think I might be crazy and don't quite understand what I am saying, it's ok...
AS LONG AS I MYSELF UNDERSTAND...
call it positive thinking if you must... :)
I'm not a freak... :)

Just a few hours ago I had the entire screen production faculty over for dinner and a movie... it was good...
we had flied lice, flied noodol, chinken with brack bean sauce...... bak choy... and apple crumble...
then we watched Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind..... Brilliant Movie.... Tripy but says quite a lot... I think everyone enjoyed themselves.....

anyhow maybe i should go off now, seeing that my eyes are starting to get tired...... catch the sleep wave while its around... :)

Till laterz... for good news....

2007-03-04T00:34:00.000+11:00

hm ok Work's been crazy.... we also had orientation camp for the students which went really well... I had my plans for red-faces night and it worked beautifully... Interesting fact, Mint/Listerine causes a wasabi burn to be less painful and teary... I thought Mint would make it worse... but I was wrong indeed... The Wasabi filled Chocolate Mint ice-cream that 2 people had to eat did not have such a bad outcome... although... the reactions were pretty darn hilarious.... Hilarious to those who were aware of what was in it... much to the disgust and hatred of the rest who had no idea.... People thought Bonar n I were big meanies... in fact, what they did not realize was that Anita was a good actress when eating Jelly Fish... and so was Kelly n Mike, who had to eat Chicken Feet and Preserved Mandarin Peel... Tim had to eat Petai.. RAW... hahaha
Anita thought there was going to be Wasabi in Tim's ice-cream but what she did not know was that Bonar n I had turned the tables on her and put lots of wasabi in hers too...

anyhow... I just came back from the city... went to take a look at the Mardi Gras (the Gays n Lesbians) parade... Why you would ask me... Curiosity would be my reply... plus it's Bonar n Anita's last year in Sydney and they wanted to go because they were there last year but did not get a good look. We stood at the very front of the barricades from 5pm till about 10pm..
No judgement towards them... but what I saw, was many people, lost, confused and hurting... and some just being rebelious for the sake of making a point... one thing that struck me most was that they looked like they took more care of their own bodies in comparison to us... and they had a whole lot more of self-esteem that us too... either that or they were hiding behind a facade...

Yes... i know that there might be a few of you reading that belong to the same community... I just want you to know that you are not being judged... in fact, my ears are open for whenever you need them... I might not be able to solve problems, but what i can do is listen... and let you know that someone cares...

Hmm ok its late now... I'm tired and should actually go to bed. Will continue with part 2 of my packing tomorrow... Have started packing n throwing things out for when I have to move in June... Learning how to be ruthless n throwing out the htings that are not needed... I CANNOT BE A HORDER... I CANNOT BE A HORDER... I CANNOT BE A HORDER...

2007-02-22T21:40:00.000+11:00

Hmm been awhile... life's even more hectic now that college has started... it's wierd not studying... Last weekend, my connect group went to Nelson's bay for a short holiday as a farewell to our beloved Lise who's off to Holland. We've done life together for 4 years and sure it is sad but we just have to keep reminding ourselves that it is not goodbye but see u later. Besides... one has to go forth and do what they are meant to be doing, rather than staying in comfort but not feeling fulfilled or reaching one's full potential... Now... saying that, does that apply to me? I hope I am in the right position... it's a little difficult to see now because its tough... but maybe i need to go through this tunnel before I can get to the next destination... i just hope I am in the right place and doing the right thing...

The holiday was good... I finally got to go to the beach after 2 years... and to think I live on the northern beaches... shame I know... anyway... there was the spa... beach... monopoly... and cooking... Everyone put in effort and it was a great time away... and yes i got burnt... just like a roasted pig... guess it was timely seeing that when we went away it was the eve of CNY and this year's the year of the pig... the connect group got a cultural experience 'cos I brought with me steamboat and all the traditional steamboat food.... we had lots of leftovers though...

Here are some pictures from the week... I'll get more from the holiday when i can...

The Day the Queens came to Sydney and caused massive gridlocks in the city, both traffic and human jams...
Queen Elizabeth 2, the smaller of 2 ships

Queen Mary 2, the massive 23storey high cruizeliner, 3 times the size of the Titanic...

The view of the city while we walked through the botanic gardens from circular quay to get to Mrs Macquarie Chair's point where everyone tried to get a glimpse of the ship

Lise n the roasted Pig

The gals on an advanture

its now 9.40pm...More laterz... back to work...

2007-02-12T19:52:00.000+11:00

Woohoo!!!! I got the car today.... brilliant brilliant car... I feel safe now.... Still trying to get used to central locking... and not being able to rest my hands on the handbrakes... but loving the fact that I now have so many places to keep things... I can leave the office keys in the car n not carry it around.... I can put my drinks in the Drink holder! Only bad thing so far about the car is that I cant adjust the seat belt height and it was resting against the flesh of my neck but I've now bought a seatbelt cover so I do not get cut. Anyway.... here are a couple of photos... couldnt take anymore because of the miserable weather in Sydney....

Enjoy...

Hahahah IRONIC REGO PLATE seeing that I work in the TV industry...

BBC 05 P
hahahah
British Broadcasting Corp.

wahahahha Maybe in the future...

College starts tomorrow... going to be interesting... I hope things are better this year :)

2007-02-10T22:14:00.000+11:00

So.... its been another long week... with many many hrs of work and crazy happenings...
however good news is that I managed to stay home today and stay away from work today...

Went out to a Singapore restaurant last night with Wayne n Grace, 2 fellow Singaporean friends of mine. we had Fish head curry and proceeded to Pancakes on the rocks for desert. The food at the Singapore restuarant was not bad... pics later...

I have successfully baked Chocolate Merlot Cranberry Brownies... ok they sound sinful... and yes they are as bad as they sound.... imagine Cranberry soaked in Merlot in a richhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh chocolate brownie... cooking is so therapeutic....
the first since i've been back in Sydney... and a very good boost to the ego that kinda need a little help...

Been thinking lately and hoping that I would be able to use my frustrations with certain issues and channel them to make changes for the better. Hmm hopefully this will be another year where i actually meet all my goals...I've stepped it up a whole lot for this year and at this point of time it's looking like its difficult but I guess I just have to be dilligent and persevere. I can only try....

Another realization of how i sometimes suffer from delayed reaction... I walked into a car's towbar last Saturday while talking to a friend and walking in a carpark and only just realized today that I've got a bruise from it.

Blah... this entry is so random and not at all comprehensible... i think i need to stop here...

I'm hoping I can get my car on Monday...

2007-02-01T23:07:00.000+11:00

... sigh...

So many things have happened since coming back to Sydney, which would explain the absence of blogging. Sorry to all avid readers...

Work hours have been between the range of 10 and 16 each day... which includes multi-tasking n working the computer hard... One day the computer will give up on me because i'm always cracking the whip...

In 8 days, I have managed to clock 47hrs of OT on top of the normal working hours. That's 5 and a half days of Work!
Hmmm.... come to think of it... How in the world did I do that?

It would be SCARY if computers had feelings and could express them... I wonder what trouble I might get myself into.

Anyway I am blogging tonight because I'm working from home. No electricity at work for the next couple of days... So it's a little more flexible... which would explain the ability to blog!

Meeting tomorrow morning in a cafe and then taking the car down to the dealers to see how much I would get for it as a trade-in. Oh I forgot to mention... New Car coming up! :) I promise I'll show photos when i finally get it...
Got an excellent deal from a friend.... Ohh i'm so excited... I hope they have the colour that I want in stock...... PLSSSS???? Dark Silver would be Brilliant. Soon, I'll say bye to the days of having to manually lock the doors, and remind passengers to remember to lock their doors... gone will be the days of struggling to wind up the window after exiting carparks while trying to drive at the same time before the car behind starts honking their horns! Gone will be the days of brakes locking up! AND gone will be the days of balancing a drink in my lap while I drive, or placing it in the fake cup-holder that so often falls apart when the drink bottle is too heavy...

Anyhoo... Things are generally going well... tracking along too quickly for my liking.... a month's gone from this year...... and the next 11months doesn't seem too far away... Oh alright I'll shush...

Ok... time to go.... need to prepare for the morning meeting. Till later...

2007-01-01T10:00:00.001+11:00

Hello my dear readers... Greetings from Singapore...
I got back to Singapore yesterday arvo but was way too weak and sick to update.
Had breakfast on board the plane n I suspect that there was something wrong with the sausage that I had...
About 15mins after breakfast, i fell ill and the air stewardess had to get me medication... it was not a pretty sight... stomach cramps, cold sweat, pale face... nauseous....
I had to drink a cup of yucky stuff and managed to fall asleep on the flight after... Reached the airport at 1.30pm and it didnt take me long to get my bags.

Home doesn't really feel like home anymore.. its wierd.... My room's been taken over... so has my wardrobe... taken over by my younger sister....
Grandmother is starting to show signs of her old age.... she's 77 and turning 78...
I still can't belive i'm here in Singapore.. my body clock is definitely still running on Sydney's time... was up at about 4.30am Singapore time this morning, which is about 7.30am Sydney. it's now 7.15am here... the television's on with nothing to watch and a dvd player that's broken... everyone's still asleep except for my grandmother... Mindy (my younger sister) had 2 friends sleep over and they had just gone to bed when I got up...

I slept through the countdown into the new year... this goes to show i'm growing old too...
I can no longer handle too many late nights.. or sleepless nights...

I hope things went well with the New Year Service in CCC...kinda upset that I had to miss it....

I can't find any painkillers in the pharmacies here that have codine in it for my back and i've run out.... :(
Hmm we've got the extended family coming for lunch and dinner today.... hopefully i won't be too tired and feeling better....

Alright... til laters...
Happy new year to all and here's to a great year full of blessings!

2007-01-01T10:00:00.000+11:00

2006-12-28T22:28:00.000+11:00

So.... I'm blogging from the new mac named Nelly...
She is a 2.33 Ghz Intel Core 2 Duo brain, has 3gb of RAM, 100gb HDD with 7200rpm and is 17 inches wide....
She's a beauty... but VERY VERY FRAGILE in comparison to the old mac... so guess who's getting her some protective gear

Well.. a fragile laptop for a fragile owner... Stephen thinks I'm fragile... I think I'm fragile too... so bite me!

Anyway I'm 2 days from flying and have I packed? No....
I've got a few presents to bring back home.... but not a whole lot of clothes seeing that it is my plan to buy more from Singapore...
Hmmmm I lurrrrrvveee the laptop

Thanks Mum n Dad....
It runs sooooooooooooooooooooo much faster in comparison with the old Powerbook...
Shoots... i've upgraded from a 667Mhz Power PC G4 with 768mb RAM to a 2.33Ghz n 3gb RAM. No wonder I can feel the difference... its like comparing a 1985 Toyota Camry to a 2005 Toyota Camry... :)

Ah... its nice to have a laptop that actually doesn't have to be plugged into an AC just because of a dead battery... :)
Nite readers!!!

2006-12-26T00:11:00.000+11:00

well well well...
First of all to all my readers, Merry Christmas...

Another year's gone... and this one's special because its my first Christmas away from the family... I've just experienced a traditional English Christmas in Australia with the Wallington Family and the Queens family (who are Simon's sister n brother in law's family).

I got up around 7.30, got to church at 8.30, had a one hr service from 9-10am, got to Christa's at 11am and exchanged pressies before the lunch...
For lunch, we had a glass of champange n wine, Watermelon/Prawn/Chilli Salad, Traditional Turkey with Cranberry and stuffings, Ham and roast vegies... Coffee/Tea/ Rocky Road/ Ginger Bread/ LOTS AND LOTS OF CHOCOLATE...

Then we played cricket in the back yard...
My first ever! and i'm quite a good bowler... and when Simon hit a bat, it flew right into my left tigh... still no bruising yet but it sure does hurt... not a whole lot... :)

We then went back indoors and had Tradition Christmas Pudding with BRandy butter, Brandy Cream, Custurd and Caramel Pecan Ice cream...
Also my first real Christmas pudding...

We then went bush walking... the ladies thought it might be a 45mins walk but the guys had other ideas... the hike on a dirt trail ended up taking 2 and a half hrs!!!
Got back to the wallingtons', had dinner, which was Roast Pork, Salad, more chocolate, Ginger bread, rocky road and Austrian Christmas cookies... then it was a game of Monopoly, in which my team is on the winning end... the game will be continued tomorrow... with or without me there. I haven't decided if I'm going to work..... Plus there is the boat races tomorrow...

Gosh... so many new experiences, the meeting of new people and of course, lots of fun and love... so I am blessed... Admitedly, it would be nice to be with family... but I guess u make do when u are overseas... Hey at least I got a chance to experience a traditional English Christmas... Maybe next year I might have an Aussie Christmas Experience... BBQ and Seafood I heard... we'll see... :)

Anywayz... bed time for me....
Good night and merry christmas to one and all... :)

2006-12-24T14:54:00.001+11:00

An accident on christmas eve won't be very nice....
The weather's miserable and there was a massive downpour... was coming back from the shops and crossing the roseville bridge that was flooded from the rain and a bus drove right next to me, splashing water against my windscreen continuously... at the same time..... my brakes locked up and my car skidded. Lost control of the car and almost hit a bus but Thankfully nothing happened..... just wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too close for my liking... good thing the bus sped up a tiny bit..... there were a couple of cars behind me that were struggling as well... and to think i was only travelling 40km/h on an 80km/h zone.... the amount of water did not allow my car to go any fast than that.... which I think was a good thing....

So I'm ok... just very shaken.....
and to think tonight i have to drive down the gorge.... :(

PLS STOP RAINING??? only rain on the top of the Dams and on the farms... not in the city... PLS?

Hmmm the sound of Sirens... not a good thing...

2006-12-23T15:02:00.000+11:00

Stephen had my car all day Friday 'cos his car was smokin after production on THursday night along the wakehurst Parkway... Because he had such a long drive to go, i let him have my car while his mechanic who is our friend took it away. His mechanic brought his car back to my place last night so that Stephen n I could swap cars. So anyway, Stephen got to mine around 12pm n we had a cup of tea and exchanged Christmas presents. And oh my gosh I love my prezzie.... He gave me a set of White Basic Bowls from Maxwell Williams and also a square serving dish from Maxwell Williams... Just what I wanted... every time i've been going to the shops, I would walk past them and be tempted to get a set but have never done so... Well... Now that I have the start of the collection, I will be getting more to add to it... and I won't use it until my new place...... or... maybe I might not be able to wait? Oh Heck.... we'll see what happens... Also... I'm glad he liked his present...

Hmm alright... time to go n get diiner for the crew.... we;ve got Guy Sebastian coming tonight for a Christmas Carol special. Not too much of a fan but hey.... christmas carols... :P

Till laters...
8 dyas till i gret back to singapore for a holiday...

2006-12-18T20:53:00.000+11:00

ok... first up, forgive me if this blog sounds depressing....

Sat was cctv lunch for all the volunteers.... got to work at 10am to help out with the preparations. it went well and while we were cleaning up, i ask micah n leyla if it was said if i went n caught a movie alone... hahahaha Micah said only losers did that... n leyla laughed... i ended up getting an invite to their place for dinner.... which was cool...

I was getting bored with the christmas season around the corner.... for about the 4th time in the last week i;ve wanted to watch a movie... but couldnt find anyone to go with.... anyway I ended up taking up their offer.... had dinner at theirs with Chris Peterson, who is one of Micah's best friends... Dinner was magnificent....company was good.... and we ended up getting a movie from video ezy... we watched Click with Adam Sandler.... Brilliant plot! A movie worth owning... and one of Adam's better movies besides 50 first dates... and while we were at the shop, i ended up buying a movie called The Machinist. Havent watched it yet but it looked cool and it was cheap so... :)

I've been busy, up until yesterday when I had a day off.. wait... Sunday and i'm not at work in the morning? Now... i cant actually remember the last that happened.... wait.. i did go into work, just to drop something off, then headed to the mall and did some shopping... Came back home, had lunch, cleaned the house and then went to work at 5pm. And this morning, i got up n was feelin like crap 'cos i think i've got the flu..... runny nose... congested lungss.... great!

Had a photoshoot today with Dane for his production website... I thought it was going to be short shoot but turned out finishing only at 5.45pm...-_- full day of photo shoot and ended up not going into work... my nose is still stuffed and i'm tired... maybe i should head to bed...

But before i go, I actually shound get back to why i was originally blogging...

I used to sing the song I'll be home for christmas.... and i loved it... but never really meant much to me... it was just one of the many songs that would randomly get stuck in my head... anywayz, i was driving the other day and started singing it.... but I stopped myself from finishing that song.... only because I know this year it is not true.... I wont be home for Christmas... My first Christmas away... and u know what's depressing? the fact that i just realized that I am now actually old.... buying christmas presents for little kids... kids that belong to my friends... kids that are close to me... and more and more friends that are getting married....finished with studying, at least for now... plans of getting a mortgage, building up a life....

And i did not mention that I've been offered a full time job in CCC... my Temporary Residence shouldnt be a problem now...
and i also got a little note on my car windscreen yesterday that was a little strange......... it was a note from a so called secret admirer... but from the handwriting, i think it's a female friend of mine that is playing a prank on me..... it was not expected but nevertheless made me smile....

and oh my neighbour's just rang the door bell and invited me for dinner on Wednesday but we;ve got christmas production..... so i said Friday should be fine seeing that I wont have anything on that night.....
Tomorrow night I'm taking Christa's kids out to the movies... we're watching Charlotte's web... i hope its good.... and i wanna watch The Holiday too......
sigh... i cannot believe Christmas is here....which means its the end of the year.... now.. what have i done this year that i can actually be proud of?

meh... bedtime... but before i go,

Santa Clause is now known as Father Consumerism. I saw a poster at the shop with santa n some smart alec had posted a sticker next to his face, that stated Father Consumerism. heh

2006-12-11T08:23:00.000+11:00

I've been up since 6.30am... which is now 2 hrs ago.
Wanted to say bye to Bonar's family as they left for the airport to go back to Indo.
I had just started getting used to having them around in the house!!! and now that they are gone and bonar's leaving in 2 days, the house will be so damn quiet! hopefully I don't get too home sick or depressed? 3 more weeks till i get back to Singapore for a short holiday...

I KNOW! I'LL KEEP MYSELF BUSY AT WORK!!! now dat's a plan....

Did not have to go in to work today as there's been a power cut in the entire area so that generators could be swapped. We need more power with the new buildings and what nots... so i'm off shopping with bonar today at the factory outlets...

there's staff party tonight at the crabtree's place... what should i wear i wonder?

Anyway back to the point of blogging... I'm already in the mood for Christmas n just realized it is kinda sad that I do not have a Christmas tree or the fact that I ONLY HAVE TWO FREAKIN CAROLS ON MY COMPUTER!!!! i've been listening to the same two songs on a repeat since i've been up... think i will go invest in a christmas cd today...
hmm... my first Christmas away from the family... and oh it's dad's birthday today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING U'VE DONE...

Oh crap... i've got a headache... think its finally time for some breakfast???

Laters.

2006-12-09T23:40:00.000+11:00

So tonite was graduation...
The first pioneer graduates of SCA's Degree Program...
which means I am now a free woman with a degree in hand...
I walked across stage, shook the Dr's hand and he told me he was proud of my achievements... Made me feel like an important person for that split second... it's kinda scary when the big boss knows you and says that...
The ceremony was like the usual... although, it was a great thing to see the college grow in numbers every year...
Beth n Andrew came to give me support which was very very nice... and they brought little Zachariah... who turns 1 next week!
Also, it is Beth n Andrew's wedding anniversary tomorrow...

After the ceremony, the forth years went out for dinner at Glenrose... we had a chinese banquet dinner which was quite nice... Beth, Andrew n Zach came along cos it was meant to be a celebration for Zach's birthday too...
Gosh he's grown so big... He's so talkative and active... and he clearly enjoys his food... no... not baby food... he had the same kind of food we had. And he loved his present which was a little ride-on car that could be converted into a scooter... It prolly will last him a couple of years at least, seeing that he's just learnt how to stand up.

I got a card from Beth n Andrew for graduation too.. and I thought I'd type it out here for everyone to see too...

Be prouod on this day
for the things you've accomplised,
the way you have grown,
and the goals you have met.

Look now to the future
and face it with courage,
and don't waste a minute
of life on regret.
For the future you'll have
will be just what you make it-
be true to yourself
as you follow your star,
For you have the power
if you choose to use it
to reach any dream,
so remember - reach far!

Annonymous

Beautiful isn't it. I'll remember that...
Hahaha we all got fortune cookies after dinner and mine said this:

Adversities do not build character. It reveals it.

hmmm :)
anyway time to move on to creating a christmas prezzie...
I think i've finished all the christmas shopping, can't think of anyone else to get prezzies for....
Just need to wrap them up now.... Alrighty.... back to creating...
I'll have photos up hopefully tomorrow...

2006-12-09T23:33:00.000+11:00

I'm waiting for my hair to dry.. was bored... looked at my friends' blogs and decided to take this quiz....

Aparantly... this is what I am....

2006-12-05T14:15:00.000+11:00

graduation dinner was last night and we had a ball...
I won't say much but let the pictures do the talking...

In the Limo

Limo view 2

Luna Park n the crazy 4th Years

Kath n I

our dinner table

Pam and the graduating gals of the Degree

Stephen n I

Kathryn n I on the couch that was in the bathroom...

Kerry-ann n I

Emily n I

Bernie n I

Michael n I

Julia n I

Smash n Michael

Em n I

Josh, Em n I

Caroline n I

Em n I on the dance floor

2006-11-28T23:24:00.000+11:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Bonar's family is here.... and i just got a massage because they heard that i had a bad back...
It hurtsssssssssssssssssssss so bad........
and aparantly my calves, and feet would be swollen and bruised tomorrow.

So I've got blockages in my blood vessel... and aparantly it looks like a huge stone in my vessel. Lets see what I look like tomorrow... we'll see if i can go to the gym as well...

Alright... i'm going off to bed.....

2006-11-27T00:56:00.001+11:00

sigh... it took so bloody long to load blogger so i could blog and vent before i went to bed...
Just one of the ways i deal with things i suppose...

the back n neck is so munted and out of place that i've been in agony. Can't wait to go to the chiro on Tuesday...
hopefully i can sleep tonight... last nite was a torture.... and because of my back, ive had a headache thats bugging me...

I am so over essays... and the fact that i've had to redo two... is like.............. *rolls eyes*

in more news... i smashed my fourth toe on my left foot while trying to vacuum my room. I had a rissole for dinner at 5pm, am hungry now but at the same time feeling nauseous... Wait a minute... how the hell does that work?

Also... from tomorrow onwards, i have 9 people living at my place...
And... i'm going on a diet because i dont want to look fat in the grad photos and the upcoming holiday photos...
umm... and............. for the first time since I had my car... which is like...............................almost 2 yrs, I WALKED TO THE SUPERMARKET TODAY TO GET GROCERIES!!! gahhh.... lazy arse... oh well i'm going to have to try n make it a point to do that more often...

I am so looking forward to the 3hr spa n massage in Byron bay in January.... but it seems so........... freakin far away... in between then, theres still a whole lot of marking, christmas production n.............. oh gosh... who knows what else will come my way...

Hmmm its 1am, ive just heard the gate close... which means the delivery of marks from Bronwyn.... woohoo! sarah will be happy....
ah well... at least someone is...

Oh i hope i can survive the next few weeks.... God help me...

If u think this entry is incomprehensible... its fine... its just like the essay!

2006-11-27T00:56:00.000+11:00

2006-11-26T00:40:00.000+11:00

I guess early nites and me just don't go hand in hand... been back for a while but still up in front of the computer...

woohoo!!! new blogskins...
I think after the marking and grad, i will do my own as a form of relaxation...
It is so flippin hot today i washed my hair twice... spent a whole day with Emma in the city...
We went shopping and i got me a new dress for graduation...
:( ok i admit... i paid $230 for it.. a little pricey and more than what i would normally pay... but i felt really comfy in it... and i can wear it to different occassions... not too dressy, not too casual... and brilliant for night out with the gals... And i guess its a reward for the hardwork this year...
next i just need to get a pair of shoes and i'm all set for grad ceremony and the dinner...
The dress is not something i would have normally picked but I actually really like it... so... :)
We got back to the northern beaches, both had a shower n then met her at hers to get dinner at Wok Bar before we went to watch the Actors night... were going to hang out at the beach cos we still had a bit of time but it kinda got windy and we ended up going back to her place for 30mins...

hillarious to the point i laughed so much i could hardly breathe and at one stage thought i had to use my ventolin...

Great day... mission accomplished... Happy Michelle but not so happy wallet...
Ah well...
Thanx Emma for the day! we need to do this again... maybe without spending so much... hahaha
Josh, Thanx for lending me Emma! hehehe
Oh wait... u're in Singapore enjoying yourself with the rest of the team...

2006-11-23T22:25:00.000+11:00

SHIVERS....
I handed in the last assignment today... and had my last class...
relieved yes... but not very happy 'cos it's dawned upon me that it will be awhile till i study again...

Everytime I go to the city to visit the State Library to do my essays and at the same time watch a countdown of the essays i have to do... i get more and more excited...
But as i reach the end... i feel a sense of.....loss...

Almost 19years of study...
What will I do next year?
What will I do with myself?
Sure I prolly will keep myself busy with work, but it's not going to be the same... hopefully it will all be for the better... and hopefully i won't regret making the choice of takin 2 years off before doing the Masters...

17 essays i've done this year... a total of round about 50 000 words...
At the same time hold a number of job positions and organize the thailand gig, as well as attend classes...

Now question is... have I made a difference to lives of anyone? Anyone at all? Well I hope so... I don't know... hopefully i've done something right...

Well the busy period does not stop just yet...
next comes the marking of students works...then graduation and grad dinner, preparation for Christmas and New Year...

Hopefully I graduate... nerve-wrecking....
Oh well we'll see what happens...
In the mean time..........early night for me...

2006-11-16T18:13:00.000+11:00

Crap... once again, time is against me...

Can i have 48hours in a day?
PlS?

2006-11-09T22:10:00.000+11:00

So... tell me... what happened to the strong and courageous person that you were?

The foggy road that's up ahead
looks too dangerous
makes one wonder
and be so afraid

now who would have thought
through that smiling face
had cuts and wounds so deep
words would not suffice

the short fuse and sleepless nights
the lack of energy and brainless life
Majority's gone but the little that's left
is trying so hard to be revived

Could tiredness take the courage out of someone
or was it life that took it away?
Paranoia, Isolation, Fear, Rejection
This vicious cycle might have found its place

2006-11-02T23:35:00.000+11:00

Am I confused, or am i confused...
I don't know anymore...

Am i cut out for this...

Maybe...

who ever said it was going to be easy... If someone did, run them over, pour lemon juice over them, sprinkle a whole carton of salt and... I don't know...

It never was from day one...

Should I walk away?

Can I try and take it by the horns and start wrestling...
If I do, will I have the strength to follow through...
If I don't, will I regret 20years down the track...

Should I walk away?
Should I walk away?
Should I walk away?

I should be tougher than this?
I thought I was...

I've been told not to let anyone despise my youth...
but circumstances present itself as too difficult...

Money...
Dreams...
Trust...
Boundaries.... Where the hell does boundaries start and end?
Friends? or Acquaintance?
Crap i cant write...
Masters?
Dreams?
Drive?
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...

What do you do when you do not know anymore???
Let it slip through your fingers?
Grasp it?
Stay tough?
Be weak and walk away?
Smile to the rest of the world, put on the brave face and hope one day it will pass?
Shut your trap?
Be vocal?

Trust...

Is this coherant? Not??? never mind...

Trust...

Fish for dinner... Fish that has been in the fridge for the last week... semi-frozen...

Chocolate... Its supposed to make you feel better... Is it???

Cocktails...
No not cocktail sausages u blitherin idiot...

Is friggin a bad word?

Pile of poo... Elephant poo?
Half a tonne of elephant poo...

Computers... laptop... speakers... subwoofer...
Phone... mobile phone...
Damn... the research paper might not be good enough...

Good enough? To what and who's standard?
Mine? Yours? History? Society? Government?

Trust...
I said trust...
Who?

you thought you were doing ok... but clearly you thought wrong...

you thought you've achieved quite a bit in your time and it is time to maybe slow down... but is it real or just your own imagination?

What if it was?
All you thought u've accomplished, was only accomplished in your head...
Or worse, maybe you just talk yourself up?
Do you?

Or maybe because you slowed down and things start to show...

Come on... make up your mind...
Stop messing with your own head...

Trust... damnit... i said trust...

Am I confused? Or am i seriously confused?

2006-10-13T20:57:00.000+10:00

Before i get started with another essay, I thought i'd do a little blogging seeing that I havent done so in 2 weeks... and the blog's a little stagnant and pathetic...

Anyway...
Its been a long day.... another 13hr day for me... Micah's on holidays for the week... and thankfully comes back on Monday.... He came back to work for a week after 2wks in Africa. And yes... it is always quiet when there's enough people around... but... When there is lack of manpower, things happen... argh...

Yes i'm looking forward to the next 7 weeks to be over... but just the thought of the things that have to be done in the next 7 weeks scares me...
5 essays due...
1 major production and the lead up to it...
1 conference...
Marking assessments...
CCTV...
the random little video clips that needs to be done almost immediately after its been requested for...
Lectures n tutorials....
Teaching...
Prep for next year...
Visa stuff to apply for...

hahah sorry... i didnt mean to tire pple out with that list.... i was just trying to list it for my own benefit while i think of how i'm going to tackle all that...

Hmm oh well... i'll take things one at a time... I think... unless like today i had to settle 3 things at a time... while the rest sit in the back of my head n yell out at me for attention...

But at the end of the day... things work out find... yes... its always a matter of time..... and WAITING...

grr...

Its days like that I wished I had a home cooked dinner waiting for me when i get home... or even if that luxurious option not possible, have a nearby coffeeshop where i could buy a packet of Chicken Rice... or Duck Rice... or Hor Fun... or........ Hokkien Mee... or... Fried Oyster.... and wash it all down with a packet of Teh-peng...
*droolsss....*

Oh well...
Keep dreaming... one day when i go back to singapore for a holiday.... i'll have dat... but in the mean time.....
I'm content with my instant noodles... :)

K... time to get back to work.... I just need to hang in there for a couple more weeks....

And yes... I am going to the graduation dinner....

2006-09-30T22:04:00.000+10:00

I despise your weakness... really... i do...

2006-09-25T21:24:00.000+10:00

In a state of procrastination and took a test that i saw on a friend's blog....

Don't believe in horoscopes but this is kinda true... i guess to a certain extend...

Your life is represented by the castle of power with great ability and able to work under pressure. However, an over devoted spirit could lead to a slight mental imbalance. You keep your word and you like kind and determined people. You look like an easy-going person but you are actually quite determined. It's hard to tell what's on your mind and you tend to keep a low profile.◎

Your characteristics, subconscious, and behavior modes, according to your fate and destiny, are represented by the castle. You will naturally protect yourself, but can accept others. You are amiable and smart, but a bit dull.

You understand things clearly, but tend to keep your viewpoint inside your heart. Although a castle is impressive and imposing it also seems unchangeable. People will neglect your contribution until you leave your original position or give your feedback, only then will they discover your importance. You have your own viewpoint, but are willing to cooperate with others and give them the stage and opportunity to perform. A castle is has defense function, so you are more defensive and others are unable to enter your inner world.

Your appearance is very amiable, but you are very rigid in your heart and will persist and not give up. You admire people who are heroic, dominating and a bit arrogant, but also respect those who are unselfish and lenient with others. Your entire life is like a solid castle, devoted society, never asking for any payback, and being supportive of others. You will have many good friends in the down times of your life.

2006-09-25T17:23:00.000+10:00

Oh I am so sick of empty promises...

2006-09-23T23:08:00.000+10:00

Hahaha...

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence.

Sociology

92%

Philosophy

92%

Journalism

83%

Mathematics

75%

Psychology

67%

Theater

67%

Chemistry

67%

Art

67%

Dance

58%

Linguistics

58%

Engineering

58%

Anthropology

58%

English

50%

Biology

50%

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2006-09-22T23:35:00.000+10:00

Crazy week.... 30mins till the weekend... and yes i'm still at work...
In fact... Kerry and I are both here working out butts off...
I'm just waiting for the videos to render... as usual...

Well... goodnews is I am almost finished.... once this is complete... I am going home... going to try n have a mini sleep in tomorrow morning... all dependent on my body clock of course...

Bec Anthony was here in Sydney for a visit and stayed with me for a week. I was not home most of the times though... and when I leave the house... almost as per usual the household is still sound asleep....'

I took her to the airport earlier... as well as Robyn French n her daughter Kia, who had to be at the airport an hr earlier than Bec... traffic back n forth was Nuts....
took me more than an hour to get back from the airport when it normally only takes 30mins... All because of the silly NRL Games...
Traffic was so............ SLOW....

Anyway render's done.. back to work.. my eyes are closing on me.... so... till next time...

2006-09-14T23:00:00.000+10:00

Its been a hectic day... however, I am surprised at the supernatural strength i've got that's getting me by so far...

Got home last night at 11.15pm... went straight to bed and was back at work at 7am this morning... it's now 10.55pm and I've still got quite a bit to go before i can leave. I have a client coming in to view the work tomorrow morning at 8.30am so I need to finish it by tonight. Yes this is the screaming client. But hopefully tomorrow he won't be as nasty... and I promise I will be nice. Not going to be pushed over though....

Now... u're asking... so why aren't u concentrating on your work then? Well... i'm sitting through the blue line fever... Rendering in technical terms... its taking way too long.... 25mins to render a 4sec clip... Grrr.... So anyway back to the blogging...

We had a leaders' meeting and it was really cool. I got a prophesy which I will be hanging on tightly to... This means... there will be testing times along the way. But I am not afraid... I am braced and ready for the fight. I know what was said is true and will be true. A matter of timing... just like how tonight was very timely.

I think in this year alone, my skills have improved quite dramatically... just looking at my handheld work... despite a shoulder and back that's killing after the day.... That's always a good sign... no not the pain.... the work!

Things are moving really quickly... Had 2 new projects handed to me today by the PPP, so in the mean time I'm holding on to his laptop as well... Yes I'm working all 3 computers at the same time....

On top of that, decision's been made to move 2 out of 4 services out of the auditorium into the glass house,just this afternoon, which means.... Major logistics decisions to be made.... Micah and Kerry are not around so I'll just have to decide and make the call....

Hahaha craziness.... and on top of that still running the studio and making sure the rest of the weekly work is completed and sent. As of tomorrow, my weekly week is 1 week ahead of scheduled time... trying to get 2 weeks ahead but because of all the last minute happenings, its gone back to 1. However, hopefully next week won't be as crazy. Then that way i can get links out... as well as 2 episodes... without the new links first.... Oh well... fun and joy... I can't believe 1 week has passed already... another couple more minutes and i'm so much closer to the weekend.... hoping to go into the state lib on Sat.... First thing in the morning... have to be back in the arvo though... seeing that I have to be around for all services due to the changes made...

It's okie.... One more week, Micah gets back... life will slow down a lil' and its straight into the Intensives.... And then EOYP!
Hmmmm ah well... who knows what next year brings... so till then... enjoy this crazy life.... embrace it with a smile... and a knowing that at the end of the day, it will all be fine... and for those who are reading and remember me... do say a lil' prayer for me... Trust me, it helps... :)

mmmmmm Root beer Jelly beans......

The simple pleasures of life... enjoying whatever little time you have with the people you care about.

AHhhhh the cleaner with the big bushy hair and HUGE beard just showed up and gave me a shock!!!

righto... renderin's done.... back to work... till laters...